| Wow, i havent wrote in this since october of last year, so much has changed in my life. im happy for once, im doing so much better with people to, remember i use to tell people to get out of my life, i shut everyone off for a long time. i did have to go back and aoligise to everyone, i think its because i was neglected from finding love. all that i really wanted was to find someone, and i have, and i cant ever not think about them. i remember that night, i was praying to god to send me someone, and then i wished upon 18 stars before, but that night i wished upon lucky number 19, and shazam i got them. there are a lot of things that i wish i could change about myself to fit everyones life style, im not a good person, i need to be a better person, and that kills me you have no idea. i think i need to go somewhere and get help, im not lying. i remember the night i was going to end it all, im not respected and i have come to find out that i know i will never be. i dont know, im thankfullll that all of my friends and family let me have a second chance, because honestly without them, id probably not be here, im especially thankfull for jennifer, shes my best friend and my solid rock, i think im my heart that shes the only person that understands me. shes always there, and without her, my life wouldnt be excitng and full of lovee. and my relationships have always been a no brainer, they have been always so awful, cause im just not good at them, but this time i promise myself that i will , i will make this happen, cause im happy, and iv found my perfect half. im on my way to a sucsessfullll lifee, i dont like this feeling of having no faith, but its been brought back to me, so in the end i think im going to do good, i never seen any of this comming, but, i am here to say, im not changing, i only change for good, not for unhappiness. and im happy, but for the last time, peace, ill be back to this tomorrow, im going to keep the xanga up, peace and lovee. --xo.michael-donovan |
